tempat sama, tapi tempat lain

assalamualaikum semua :)

dah lebih sebulan dah x update. biasa la, malas la katakan. hehe. sibuk le sekarang. aku dah masuk U balik. seperti biasa, masih di shah alam, masih di cempaka, masih di mawar. tempat yang sama, situasi sudah berubah sedikit. masuk degree, mawar blok 2b. keadaan pasti akan jadi lebih kelam-kabut x lama lagi.

anyway, roommate aku adalah budak APB, which is akademi pengajian bahasa. aku panggil dia kak nina. x pernah lagi aku sebilik atau satu dorm dgn orang yang lebih tua dari aku, even time mrsm dlu. tapi x pe, dia okay je.

degree ni plak masuk kelas LWB01D. mujurlah sekelas dengan acap, bieha, mun, nazi and fathy. kalau x, mmg aku loner la dalam kelas tu. x ramai budak luar, bape kerat je. ramai asasi shah alam. tapi bilangan lelaki dah bertambah. dulu time asasi 7 orang, sekarang 10 orang. dah la sorang2 badan tough macam malek noor. hehe. muka je legend, tapi hati cute. haha. pompuan plak byk muka dah kenal. ada dua tiga orang je budak baru. bleh dikatakan hampir 95 % budak degree part 1 adalah asasi uitm shah alam. bangga siot. haha. dah la batch ni paling ramai, 323 students. dulu 100++ lebih je.

setakat ni, kelas x la heavy sangat sebab baru masuk. so, banyak kelas yang x ada. sem ni ada empat subjek law, satu subjek english, satu subjek islam, satu subjek bahasa ketiga and satu lagi koko. aku dengan semangatnya masuk outward bound atau dalam bahasa melayunya kembara. aku mmg minat outdoor activity. ramai yang masuk kesatria sebab satu sem je. kembara ni tiga sem.so, bila dah masuk, kena la prepare physically and mentally. x ramai pun yang amik kembara. dalam 80+ je budak part 1.

tentang lecturer plak, mostly memang x kenal, or should i say, memang x kenal langsung. x pernah nampak muka2 mereka sebelum ni. bila dah blaja dengan diaorang, okay la jugakk. blaja bahasa perancis mmg best. nak2 lecturer yang ajar tu mmg sporting habis. nama dia dr. alexandre xavier. kelas gitu nama dia. haha. madam norliza yang ajar law of torts I pun best jugakk. kelakar and sempoi. lecturer yang ajar consti, sir ismail mmg baik. x serius. x garang. selalu senyum and ketawa dlm kelas. mmg comel la. haha. jgn main2, dia tu prof tau. haha

this sem mmg byk kena kuar duit. nak bayar buku la, yuran kolej lagi, duit tambang bas, makan and etc. buku2 law plak bukannya murah. ada yang beratus. kalau yang perlu tu, aku beli dulu. kalau urgent sangat, aku fotostat je. dok kat sini kena berjimat cermat. blaja kat uni mmg byk belanja. aku selalu kesian kat parents aku. selalu kena masukkan duit utk aku. duit yang ayah aku cari bukan utk aku sorang je. kat umah tu perlukan jugakk. bayar bil, makanan, minyak kete, rumah and etc. tiba2 buat drama sedih plak kat sini. huhu.

it's all about money bebeh

money can't buy everything, but it seems like these days, everything needs money. kalau orang kaya tu, maybe x terasa la kot bebanan tu. sebab mereka mampu. lain la dengan orang yg kurang berkemampuan macam aku ni. sebab itu, gov sediakan ptptn. hehe. aku pun mohon la. sebagai persediaan. kot2 emergency ke hape, bleh guna duit tu. sekali lagi diulang, utk EMERGENCY je. kalau nak buat joli2 tu mmg x la.

okay la everyone. got to go. a lot of things need to be settled. ingat dok U ni lenggang2 je? haha. sebelum berpisah, meh saya testing dulu bahasa perancis saya yang saya baru blaja dgn Dr. X:

"bonjour, je m'appelle ida ismail."

okay. itu saja dari saya hari ni. jumpa bulan depan. bye *keh3. nampak bebeno malas nak meng'update'*

that lady in black and white suit

assalamualaikum semua...

berita ni dah lama, tapi sekarang baru nak cerita. aku sebenarnya akan melanjutkan pelajaran aku dalam bidang undang-undang. secara spesifiknya, ijazah sarjana muda pengajian undang-undang, which is supposed to be my dream course. siapa yang x happy kalau dapat course yang dia nak.

aku ni memang la happy, tapi happy ni macam kureng la sikit sebab aku akan masuk ke kelas yang baru. classmates dulu pun tinggal sikit je yang pursue law.new step, new class. macam x biasa je masuk kelas baru. ala-ala time asasi dulu. tapi last-last, baik jugakk dengan classmates semua, sebab semua dah get to know each other elok-elok.

but this one could be a different as kelas kitaorang berkemungkinan besar akan berpecah dan akan masuk ke kelas yang berasingan. it's kinda weird though. kawan macam dah rapat, dah tahu perangai sorang-sorang macam mana. tapi, kelas lain-lain. and then kena kenal budak lain because nanti degree, akan campur dengan asasi merbok dan kuantan. x pela, aku redha. dapat kenal dengan orang baru pun best jugakk. akan ada pelbagai jenis manusia nanti. haha.

and this time, aku x biarkan result aku sem ni effect sebab budak lain. biarlah time aku berjaya dengan usaha aku sendiri. x perlu nak mintak tolong orang selalu. x perlu nak asyik orang je yang buat kerja kita. nanti nak keje macam mana? suruh bos ke yang buat keje kita? mau nya kena lempang laju-laju. haha. nak baca kes pun x reti, dok uu aa uu aa aje la nanti dalam court. mau nya kena marah dengan tuan hakim. haha

and fyi, aku akan masuk uitm SA balik lepas raya nanti, to be exact 11 hb sept. 12 hb dah start kelas. rasa debar je nak masuk nanti. entah le kenapa. sebab kekok nak jumpa orang baru kot. environment sama, orang aje yang lain-lain. dan maybe akan berkurang la manusia-manusia kat cempaka sebab degree nanti akan sikit je studentnya. maybe around 200++. time asasi dulu nak dekat 800++ students.

persediaan? x prepare sangat lagi nak masuk nanti. lambat lagi la katakan. haha. medical check-up pun x payah buat. just isi borang. tu pun sikit je. yuran pun nak bayar lepas dapat duit nanti. kiranya sekarang, aku dok rilex jela kat umah sekarang. dok umah tolong mak masak, kemas rumah, kuar jejalan dengan kawan-kawan. dok sana nanti memang x jalan sangat la aku nanti. dok dalam bilik jela jawabnya. masuk degree dah x ada elaun, yang ada hanyalah ptptn (kalau dapat), which means lepas keje nanti kena bayar hutang. tapi kalau excel blaja nanti, hutang tu sikit jela yang bayar.

okay la kawan-kawan. mahu tidur dulu. esok nak bangun awal sahur. ingat pesan saya, hidup ni jangan terlalu bergantung kepada orang lain, sebab nanti akan ada masa kita kena rely on ourself. x semua orang dapat menolong kita, melainkan diri kita sendiri :)

p/s: blazer. necessity or not? :/

tinggalkan malaysia sekejap

assalamualaikum semua...

sekarang aku dok kat umah abang aku kat subang. malam esok akan ke KLIA, nak buat umrah. ye, aku dan the rest of my family akan menunaikan umrah. sudah pasti, ini merupakan pengalaman yang agak baru bagi aku. berdebar? gemuruh? takut? teruja? semua ada. tapi yang pasti, semua ibadat kena ditunaikan dengan sebaik mungkin.

makkah al-mukarramah

flight kitaorang dari KLIA tu akan ke bahrain. tidur kat sana dalam satu malam, lepas tu ke jeddah kan seterusnya ke madinah. kat sana maybe kitaorang akan dok kat sana dalam dua malam. sekejap je.

madinah al-munawwarah

lepas tu, kitaorang akan bertolak ke makkah untuk buat ibadat umrah tu. rasa bersyukur la jugak sebab ayah aku yang sponsor sume perbelanjaan kitaorang. alhamdulillah. dapat juga menjejakkan kaki ke tanah suci. menjadi tetamu Allah. segala puji bagi Allah, pencipta segala sekian alam.

aku belum lagi dapat menghafal segala doa tu. tapi dah tahu la basic-basic dia tu. insya-Allah, aku akan cuba untuk ingat semuanya.

apa-apa pun, aku harap agar korang dapat maafkan segala kesalahan aku kat korang, kot-kot aku ada buat korang terasa hati ke, aku ada terkasar bahasa ke. segala salah dan silap harap dapat diampun.

berubah.

dan aku harap korang doakan agar perjalanan kami sekeluarga diberkati Allah dan semoga selamat pergi dan balik. so long, malaysia. see you in two weeks more :)

the hyperactive cockroach

assalamualaikum to all of my readers

well, you know that i hate cockroaches so much that every time i meet them, i'll give them some poisonous greeting called the insect spray. it's one of the effective warm welcome from me to them so far. haha.

so, when i was in my room, that little creature caught my eyes while it was wandering here and there. and yes, i decide to kill it. there's always a killing instinct inside me, to terminate the little creature. blame me, i couldn't resist the temptation to kill it. this is a serious business for me. haha.

i couldn't help myself but sprayed the Ridsect directly to its body, as i expecting a great devastative aftermath of the cockroach homicide. the first attempt doesn't affect it that much, the only thing was that it turned out to crawl up to the curtain. that scared me as i'm afraid it'll FLY! yes, a flying cockroach. what a nightmare. so i sprayed more, hoping that it will fall dramatically with some sound effect, or some CGI... i'm just kidding.

the climax is to see the cockroach die. but one thing that keep bugging in my mind is to watch how the way it die. it keep jumping here and there. like, dude, chill up, you're going to die. just make it simple. you don't have to jump or make it like another tragic death. you're no one unless you are practicing some circus moves to make yourself a famous person one day. i mean, a famous insect.

and, after a long and tiring exciting show, the life of another cockroach has ended. it is buried deep inside the shelves near my study table. no one knows when it will be found. maybe when i cleaning my room.

i am MALAY

chinese guy: you orang melayu ka?

me: a'ah, saya orang melayu *while my face showed some curiosity*

chinese guy: owh, tapi you aa, lagi putih dari saya maa... haha *while comparing his skin to mine*

me: haha. *just laughing, don't know what to say*

chinese guy: eh, mata you memang hijau ka?

me: eh, x ada la. ni contact lense. saya rabun

chinese guy: you x ada boyfriend kaa?

me: x ada. nape?

chinese guy: you better cari cepat-cepat maa... haha

me: haha, x ada la... x berminat lagi nak ada boyfriend-boyfriend ni...

chinese guy: owh, okay-okay...haha..you mau balik kelantan ka? you blaja kat sini aa?

me: a'ah. nak balik kelantan, cuti sem 6 bulan...

chinese guy: owh, you blaja apa? kat mana?

me: saya blaja law kat uitm shah alam.

chinese guy: owh...eh, nanti jangan saman saya aa..haaha

me: haha, nape plak saya nak saman?

chinese guy: x ada la, takut-takut you ingat i nak mengorat you ka apa...haha

me: haha, x ada la. x kan saya nak saman plak..

and the conversation keep going on for about 30 minutes...well, it's a bit weird for a stranger to talk with me for such a long period. but i'm okay with it, if that guy don't gatal-gatal with me la. haha.

he seems to be surprised to notice me as a malay girl. not to brag, but maybe my skin is fairer than his. he keep asking me this and that, but yeah, i just answered all those questions. x nak orang fikir aku ni perasan and sombong plak.

i admit that i'm a little bit uncomfortable to chat with him because i hardly understand what he's talking about, his malay accent is not that good and i smelled something bad from his mouth, maybe the mouth odour of maybe that's how alcohol smells like.

what i'm trying to say is, i am a MALAY girl, and i'm proud with it. as the saying goes by Hang Tuah, ' x akan hilang melayu di dunia'. :)

19 is my new number

assalamualaikum to everyone...

i'm sorry to my readers as i haven't update my blog for such a quite long time. some of you, or most of you might don't know that my birthday has passed few days ago. it was such a great one. 9th february 2011 was one of my best day ever! such a hectic day for me as i'd played the role as DPP in our mtc 037 role play and right after that, my group had the debate assessment. to be more interesting, i'd took over the second speaker and fourth speaker of the opposition. what a day!

the role play (criminal trial)

the debate (4 against 3)

and alhamdulillah, everything gone well. madam atifah, our mtc 037 lecturer praised us for the great job we'd done. and of course, everyone was delighted with the great review. 'good job,good job,good job'. :D

after that, things going to normal. wake up people! it's Sir Harcharan class. and don't you dare to speak or sleep in his class, or he will call you with something hideous, like 'hey, you. yawning like a badak' or 'kepala atok hang'. haha.it may seems to be funny, but you don't wanna make him mad at you. take this as a warn, or maybe a piece of advice.

okay, back to the story. as Sir Harcharan class finished earlier than we expected, acap made an announcement, suggesting all of us to go and have some nice dinner at kfc section 7. the best part is, it's someone's treat! everybody was surprised (including me), but right after that, all of us agreed to join the 'makan time'. haha. what can i say, we just love to eat free food.

we gathered at the kfc around 9 pm. but, before that, mila, sofia and me went to secret recipe SACC to buy my all time favourite cake, blueberry cheesecake. it's hard to resist this temptation. haha. sue me. i couldn't help myself! haha.

can you noticed any 'i'm-that-very-happy-girl' in this picture?

the cake, or 'the accused' that makes me fat -__-

after we bought the cake, we then made our way to the KFC. when we reached the place, most of my classmates were already there, waiting with anticipation for more food and their faces were glowing as soon as they saw the undeniably-delicious cake. haha. no, they didn't.they made normal happy face, but not too excited. i'm the one who's overexcited. haha. it's my birthday, so what can i say? i am that happy at that particular time :)

so, when i was looking for other classmates who's on their way to the KFC, i saw afiq, or maybe afiq (i'm not that sure), was making some order at the counter. hence, i came up with my own assumption that he's the one who treated us on that night. but, like i said earlier, it's just my assumption. maybe there's someone else who's paying the bill. but my instinct is giving me such a strong signal that the person is 'him'. most of my female classmates thought that i'm the one who paid for the food and drinks. haha, i'm not that rich to treat 26 people at the same time. well, it doesn't matter who's the one who treated us on that night, but what i wanna say is, how lovely you are to treat us with those nice and simply dinner that consequently, gave me such a long-lasting memories and impacts. thank you :)

everyone was full on that night, i bet it. with tones of chickens and slices of cakes, their faces showed all. how happy and jovial they are. how they do enjoyed the night. for me, it's priceless. unfortunately, not all of us could spend their time with the rest on that night. wafa was ill and amni accompanied her sick roommate to a clinic. some frustration arose as i'm hoping everyone was there to celebrate my birthday altogether, the complete 28 members of LWP02C. but, it's okay. we can gather around again next time, with greater number of people. haha. as the saying goes, the more, the merrier :)

however, my grief doesn't last long. on our way back to mawar, they pranked me with flour and water! i was in complete shock at that time. all of my clothes had turned into white and sticky. euuww!! haha.

i'd render into monster! stay away from me, or i'll eat ya!haha

well, yeah. i don't eat people. i'm a monster that you can be friend with.haha

it is indeed such a great and awesome night for my friends and I. I will never lose track of our 'as sweet as cotton candy' memories and remembrances. for your information, foundation is on their way to finish, and we don't have plenty of time to hang out like we used to. everybody was busy with their assignments and homeworks, and thus, i don't wanna consume much of their time. after the foundation is over, we might never meet afterwards, or maybe, with Allah's will, we will meet each other and reminisce the old time we have been through. I love all of my classmates :')

p/s: this is my honest blog post. when i say that i love all of my classmate, i meant it :)

hebat la tu..haha

first time dapat good attempt dari Madam N *ignore me, focus on the paper*

assalamualaikum semua....

nampak tak gambar besar gedabak tu? haha. tu la kali pertama aku dapat 'good attempt' dari Madam N. agaknya macam susah la kan nak dapat 'good attempt' tu (susah ke?).haha. kalau dulu asyik 'redraft' je. sekarang bila dah dapat 'good attempt' tu, bangga la tu..haha. tapi aku ni tak la hebat mana pun. kena asyik buat pembetulan je dulu...ni pun satu je yang 'good attempt'. yang satu lagi kena 'redraft' balik.haha sedih betul. tapi tak apa, cuba lagi untuk dapat yang terbaik. 'good attempt' dari Madam N adalah amat berharga. hoho.

okay la...nak buat keje Sir H plak...banyak sangat assignments yang dalam 'on-the-list'. mungkin tak baik untuk kita yang mengeluh, tapi itu la manusia, kan? *hurm...*

all those hectic days

assalamualaikum to all readers..

"Q: so hows life been going so far?

A: good... just fine doing here. "

This dialog keep playing inside my head. i'd been VERY busy these days. that's explain why i couldn't help myself updating my blog. my bad. so sorry for that.

after i came back from the mid semester break, many things happened. some of them should be cherished and remembered, while the others better left behind, be ignored. i wish that those things won't happen to me, but i guess, we learnt from the experience, right? so, i better be more careful next time. i don't wanna waste my time, money, energy and etc. on something that even not worth for me. why the hell on earth should i act upon that way? give me a single simple reason. i bet you can't.

'lupakan kisah lama, mulakan hidup baru'. the best Madam N's quotes. haha. yes, it seems to be funny. but, don't you ever think the serious part, lay behind those jokes. i'd been pondered about that for while, thinking maybe she's right. forget the past, move on. yeah, how easy life can be, huh? unless you have those computer memories where you can keep the one that you want, delete those that are not needed; then, you can move on.

but i'm just a human being. i have feelings. i have those bad days where people talking bad about me without knowing the truth, when i missed the bus to go to the class, i got low marks for my tests, my friend back stabbed me, i didn't pass my first attempt to get my driving license, being blamed for things i didn't do... i know those feelings.

i'm trying to make myself to become a better person. i have all those resolutions. but i don't have those determinations and courages, in order to achieve the goals in my life. yes, indeed, i have learnt something from the past. but i need more. i don't wanna be the old me. i wanna make a NEW me! that's all that i want... is that so hard?

90% of the experts will say yes due to the laziness contained in my body is too high. low diligentness can't beat it. what a sad person i am... haha

well, i gotta go now. it's time for sleep.. goodnight and sweet dreams everyone :)

assalamualaikum...

bilik baru

assalamualaikum semua...

korang mesti dah tau yang aku sekarang dah pindah bilik. dari 1A-02-17 (C) kepada 1A-04-32 (C). jauh kan beza tu. dan jauh la jugak jarak aku dengan ex roommate dulu. rindu gelak tawa dengan dila, qila n jijah. tapi sekarang dah lain dah. sekarang roommate baru. katil baru. almari baru. pemandangan baru. semua baru. dan mungkin bagus la jugak untuk aku kenal dengan budak budak law yang lain. dan sebenarnya, aku x pernah kenal atau jumpa roommate aku yang baru ni! like seriously la kan. haha. dan itu mungkin dia punya kebaikan la.

katil baru

boleh nampak menara dari bilik aku

kat bawah pun boleh tengok 'clear' sekali kalau ada apa apa

blok 2A

post ini pun x ada apa apa pun. just nak introduce bilik baru. hehe. cuma apa yang aku harapkan ialah agar sem ini aku dapat berjaya dengan lebih cemerlang lagi. takut jugak kalau kalau x dapat meneruskan pengajian dalam bidang law ni. walau apa apa pun, Allah lebih mengetahui...

setahun kemudian.

assalamualaikum semua....

'setahun kemudian.' mcm ayat klise je kan. ala, yang selalu keluar dalam drama drama swasta tu. huhu.

okay. cukup cukup la nak merepek ni. tajuk post pun dah macam ni. so korang mesti terfikir fikir, apa yg 'setahun kemudian' ni? sebenarnya, dah hampir setahun dah aku menamatkan pengajian kat mrsm dulu tu (rindu tau!), yakni dah hampir setahun la jugak aku dah tamat spm ni. kalau dikenang masa dulu dulu tu, selalu je kan nak buat 'time machine', so tak payah la nak rasa debaran dan kepanikan masa jawab spm tu. terus je kepada masa nak kemas kemas barang dan keluar selama lamanya dari tempat tu (dulu rasa tempat tu macam penjara!). tu dulu la. tapi sekarang dah lain. rasa lain. mrsm kuala terengganu dah naik nama kot. yang pasti, baik la.

we, the seniors, ruled the college. (l to r: alia, sarah, syaz, syeeda, anis)

handphones are so like illegal things at our college.but, we love to smuggle them.we always do seniors stuffs.

again.

and again.

our official ' baju maktab' or outing uniform

outing time. ( anis and ifah)

my class (5 al-farabi) is a little bit messy.

batch 0809 (unforeseen)

and yet, though i used to hate the rules at the college, i still missed this 'penjara'.

bila dah tahun akhir nak belajar kt mrsm ni, selalu terfikir dalam hati, " kalau setahun dari sekarang, aku kat mana ya? belajar u ke? kerja ke? dapat pergi overseas ke?". dan macam macam lagi la. banyak betul angan angan dan imaginasi aku ni. haha. kelakar pun ada. sedih pun ada. sedih sebab result spm aku tak sehebat mana nak dibandingkan dengan batchmate yang lain. kira macam tak hebat la, tak ada kelas la budak mrsm dapat result banyak itu je. tapi tak apa, aku redha. Allah bagi apa yang terbaik buat aku sekarang.

tengoklah sekarang aku belajar kat mana sekarang, 'the best law school in malaysia'. hehe. nak bangga la sikit sikit kan. haha.. *kenyit kenyit*

college of mawar

bahagia kenal bella zahiri. haha

it's called teamwork.

we eat together.

happy faces.

the boys, acap is missing.

hidup dekat uitm ni memang sangat berbeza dengan hidup dekat mrsmkt. tapi, pengalaman hidup dekat mrsmkt tu agak berguna la jugak untuk diaplikasikan di uitm ni. hidup kena berdikari. dan pengalaman di mrsmkt itulah yang banyak mematangkan aku.

dan lihatlah aku sekarang. hampir setahun dari apa yang aku asyik fikir fikirkan dahulu. sekarang aku di sini. uitm shah alam. asasi undang undang. siapa tahu aku boleh berada di sini, mengambil kursus yang tak pernah aku teringin untuk ambil. tapi ini mungkin apa yang Allah dah tentukan lorong hidup aku. aku akan cuba terima dengan sebaik mungkin. insya-Allah...

p/s : sorry, aku tak ada la gambar girls ramai ramai kelas lwp02c. hehe

new semester, new subject

assalamualaikum to all readers...

so maybe all of you had noticed that i had begun my new semester few days ago. it was a very tiring week for me though. i never expect to receive some tasks and works regarding the assignments! this is just the first week, and we all already got our assignments that shall be completed in few weeks! what the..haha. some of us maybe flabbergasted, but for me, this is just too much. haha. we never expect things like this will happen in the first week of our very new semester. all i was thinking was some ice breaking with the new lecturers, or a few classes might be cancelled due to some reasons. to get the assignments is last thing i've ever thought in my mind. but, what should i say, the new semester is more challenging compared to the previous one. i gotta take it, or leave it (who would ever just leave their assignments behind? u'll fail later!).

so here is the list of subjects that i'm gonna learn this semester:

bel 332 ( english for pre degree law I) - madam puspa

bel 342 (english for pre degree law II) - sir harcharan singh

mtc 037 ( intro to law II) - madam atifah

mtc 039 ( intro to social psychology) - madam fazlin

mtc 087 ( intro to law III) - madam nazida

mtc 088 (contemporary global issue, lecture) - madam rafidah

mtc 088 ( contemporary global issue, tutorial) - madam nurul huda

mtc 099 ( economic issue and problems) - madam jan ng

for this semester, some lecturers from the last semester are still continue to teach us ( madam puspa, madam fazlin, madam atifah). this is a good news for us as we don't have to be worried about not knowing the lecturers. all of us known them very well on how they teach us and conduct in giving the carry marks for the subject. it's a bonus for us (yeay!).

and for the another five lecturers that we never see or know how they teach their students before, here it comes the new challenge for us. some might be excited, some might be scared. HAHA (i don't why i type the haha with the capslock on). for me, this might be right time for our class to get know with other lecturers. if we keep getting the same lecturers for every semester, it will make our learning sessions become bored (sorry, but no offence). and i hate to be struck by boredom. it's like another hurdles that avoid me to from being focus and get a better result.but personally,i missed sir helmi's classes so much and i'm so sad that he's not gonna teach our class this semester.i envy the other class that got him teaching them.though he's so sarcastic,but that's the way i like him. haha. ("i'm a legend" <-- his favourite phrase).

nevertheless, getting new lecturers also mean that the business is risky. like i said before, we all don't know how the lecturers behave and either the gossips are true or not (students love to gossip about their lecturers! don't be shocked about that). but honestly, i'm keen to see how madam nazida gonna teach us later. are the gossips that we've been heard before are true? or it's just a dud? (some students bruit false gossips).

well, gotta go now. get some shower and perform the maghrib prayers. after that, i'm (reluctantly) going to finish the homework that sir harcharan gave to us. ( OMG, i'm so stressed!)

tata everybody :)

the last missing pieces

it suddenly came up in my mind

that i never told you what i supposed to say

and i'm sure you will never knew about it

forever.

i'm good in keeping secrets and my feelings

that dwell firmly in my heart and my soul

but it never gonna change the fact

how i truly feel about you

i'm no good in showing my love and affection

but when i said so, i really meant it

never lie, i hate lies, and liars too

when you don't mean it, don't say it

i'm prefer to keep my love life as a secret

it's just between you and me

it's none of the whole world's business

to know about it.

thinking of getting another one is not necessary

i'll let the time do it's job

and when the right time comes, i'll be ready

i guess.

being in a solitude is neither great nor worst situation

ever happened to me

and it doesn't render my mindset to change totally

because life taught me to be strong, every time.

and as the time passed by, slowly

the feelings never changed

it stays well in my heart and my soul

maybe, just maybe eternally.

i will not succumb to my desires easily

because the desires will turn me into a weak person

and i know it well

yes, i do.

so i guess this is it, i'll never look back

because we'll never gonna go back to the past

and try to alter the ending

it's not gonna happen

thanks for everything, i appreciated it a lot

and you know that

it's great to know a person like you

though we'll never meet

and i'm sorry, i still didn't believe the true love.

adios, el amor.

kembali ke sekolah

assalamualaikum semua..

budak budak sekolah baru nak start cuti, aku dah kembali utk menyambung pelajaran aku kat uitm plak. haha. dah hampir dua bulan cuti tanpa buat apa apa, memang best. haha. otak ni maybe dah ingat x ingat je apa yg dah belajar dulu.

semalam baru first time aku tido kat bilik baru. 1A-04-32. tinggi gila dowh! semput and penat aku nak mendaki tangga tu. 4 tingkat tu! lama lama kurus la aku. haha. tapi tu memang aim aku pun. dok kat sini body kena fit sikit. haha. dah la dok tinggi tinggi, kelas dah la jauh plak tu.haha

roommate aku semua okay okay je. baru kenal gitu gitu je. masa first day yg daftar tu pun sempat tau nama je. tu pun dua orang je. sorang lagi baru kenal time aku balik tido kat sini. haha. x sempat. lepas daftar and letak letak barang, terus blah balik rumah abg long. haha.

semalam sempat juga pergi melawat bilik qila and dila. bilik diaorang memang jauh. jenuh aku nak pergi ke bilik diaorang. qila and jijah tingkat 4 blok b. dila tingkat 3 sama blok dengan aku. lama la jugak melepak kat bilik qila tu. layan movie thai. saja saja nak jumpa, lepas rindu kat diaorang. tapi roommate aku ni okay saja. baik baik semua. huhu.

dah la, setakat ni jela. nak gi mandi dulu. kelas start pukul 10.30 am hari ini. tiring day babe!

tata semua

selamat hari raya aidil adha and i'm so not ready going back to shah alam!

assalamualaikum to all my readers.. :)

i think it's not too late for me to wish a very happy eid adha to all muslims in the world. thinking that maybe some of you have spare their time to visit the relatives and friends on this lovely day. but to me, myself, it doesn't come up in my mind to celebrate this festive like others do. slaughter the cow and goat, or something bigger like the camel. having fun together cutting the meat into pieces. reminisce the old times. that is so not me this year. i don't know why. but maybe for some reasons, it affects me to behave that way.

reason 1: no one is coming back to kelantan this year. abg long and abg ja celebrate raya haji at their wives' village. our house is quite boring and quiet. there's only five of us in the house.mom just prepare some rendang and pulut kuning. at least there's something for us to eat before went back to the village.

reason 2: mom and dad is not doing the korban this year. it's clearly because we're going back to shah alam tomorrow (a day after the raya) and the time will be really short.

so,i guess, i'm hoping for a better raya haji next year. the more, the merrier, right?

yeah, so i'm like sort of going back to uitm this saturday. and we will start our journey tomorrow. did i say we? well, yeah. my parents and my brother. they are sending me back cause i brought so many things back home. haha.

so, tonight will be the last night for me to be here. at my lovely room. to feel the last damn cold room. haha. i'll miss the tv. i'll miss my mom's food. i'll miss my little kittens. i'll miss my time being a full time couch potatoes. haha. but the one that i'll miss the most is my family (aww!). i love them so much. no matter what. cause they're the only thing that belong with me. the priceless family. love you, mom and dad. and yeah, big brothers. though sometimes you asked me to do your laundries. haha.

i had pack some of the things. clothes especially. the're A LOT. haha. tomorrow will be our long journey. need to get some sleep now. night people. :)

see you later, kota bharu.

hi, shah alam.

happy birthday ibu!

dear ibu,

i would like to wish a very happy 55th birthday to you. hope that Allah will bless you with everything that you've done. i wish that you will always in the pink of health and stay strong, like a superwoman. haha. getting older doesn't render you to became weaker. you're getting stronger. 55 is just a number. you still look fabulous, ibu.

be tough, be beautiful. you know that i didn't know how to show my love and affection to you, but trust me ibu, i love u and i'll always will do.

your daughter,

mimi.

when a heart break, it won't break even.

THE SCRIPT - BREAKEVEN

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

malaysian university english test

assalamualaikum semua..

hari ni dah lepas la segala kesusahan dan kerisauan aku tentang exam MUET tadi. alhamdulillah, aku dapat isi semua tempat kosong yg disediakan. haha. tapi tu x bermakna semua yg aku jawab tu betul belaka. paper yg paling menggugat iman aku adalh paper reading dengan listening. susahnya Allah saja yg tahu. aku dah hampir panik, nak berlari keliling dewan tu. punya la gabra tahap dewa. dah la aku datang lewat tadi. exam dah nk start aku baru sampai dewan tu. lewat tu sebab aku x tahu yg diaorang buat test kt dewan. aku ingatkan dia buat dalam kelas ke ape.mujur la dewan tu x jauh sangat dengan sekolah tu. dah la plak aku dh sampai kt dewan tu nama aku x ada plak dalam list calon yg exam kt sana. punya la aku takut gila kalau kalau aku x dapat exam kat situ. nanya aku nanti. tapi mujur la pengawas yg baik hati tu cakap yg aku boleh je exam kt situ tapi sebagai calon menumpang.

berbalik kepada exam tadi. punya la susah soalan dia. aduh. sakit jiwa raga nk menjawabnya. aku tengok ada yg termenung masa jawab exam tu. terpesona dengan alam sekitar ataupun hanya sekadar nk isi masa lapang x dapat jawab soalan tu. masing masing buat hal sendiri...

soalan paper reading tu terdiri daripada beberapa article yg panjangnya dalam satu muka setengah. bagi aku agak panjang la article tu dengan ayat ayat berbunga dan perkataan yg pernah dilihat dan didengar. pilihan jawapan pun hampir sama dan agak confuse nk pilih yg mana. dengan masa hanya satu jam setengah, agak semput aku nk pilih jawapan yg sesuai tapi alhamdulillah sempat juga jawab kesemuanya.

nak jawab muet pun x la guna banyak buku macam ni. haha

paper satu lagi yg listening pun susah jugak. walaupun speaker tu dah habis kuat dipasangnya, still x paham dan x jelas apa yg orang tu cakap. aku dah lemah semangat dah time tu. akhirnya terpaksa la aku reka jawapan yg MAYBE hampir sama dengan apa yg dia cakap. aku punya la concentrate gila gila tapi last last, x dapat jugak. x pela. nk buat macam mane. yg penting aku dah berusaha. sekarang tinggal untuk aku bertawakal dan berdoa agar aku dapat Band 4 dan ke atas. tu matlamat aku sekarang. insya-Allah...

mesti korang pernah mimpi macam ni. haha

cerita pasal UiTM Shah Alam

Assalamualaikum semua..

korang mesti pernah tertanya2 kan nape sepanjang aku dok kt uitm tu, aku x pernah sekali pun cerita pasal life aku kt sana? haha.sebenarnya aku mls nk menulis pasal life aku kt sana coz byk sgt benda yg terjadi time aku dok kt sana. pahit ada, manis pun ada. boleh dikatakan mmg byk sgt la.nk menulis pasal benda tu kena amik masa yg lama.lagipun aku masa sem dulu tu busy dgn assignment. kalau x busy aku tidur or kuar gi lain.pendek kata, ak kena concentrate la kalau nk menulis kt blog ni.

okay, so my first post pasal life aku kt sana is pasal roommate aku. kolej yg aku duduk time sem lepas ialah kolej mawar. kolej ni kira macam baru lagi kalau nk banding dgn kolej lain. roommate aku semua mmg sempoi ar. x de nk 'touching touching', tgn merayap nk amik brg org sesuka hati or buat mcm harta dia sndri. semua tu x de.haha. aku kira macam bersyukur gak la x de roommate mcm tu.

kt sana, budak asasi semua dpt sebilik empat org. okay la tu. mase hari first daftar dulu, aku x sangka plak bilik aku tu jauh. jauh macam dh nk hujung dunia. haha. bilik aku adalah 1A-02-17.

bersama adila zahiri. gambar ni diambil time last day kt sana. tgok muka pun masih ada kesan2 sun burn lagi.

masa aku sampai kt bilik tu, roommate aku dua org dah ada dah. dila dgn qila. dila atau nama sebenarnya nur 'adila bt zahiri ni asal temerloh, pahang. dia okay je.sempoi sempoi. layan lagu SOAD, pastu lame2 layan maher zain. ingat nk buat maher zain tu laki dia padahal dh ada munir.haha. jiwa dia berubah ubah. dari rock2 gitu, jd macam perempuan melayu terakhir. x sangka dia ni akn berubah menjadi wanita sejati.mase sampai dulu, aku ingatkan dia ni tomboy ke, pengkid ke.haha.tgok rambut macam laki, gaya kasar.hampir hampir tertukar identiti.haha.satu lagi pasal dila ni, kalau ada org x dikenali kacau nombor tepon kitaorg atau sengaja nk cari pasal dgn kitaorg, dila la orgnya yg akan back up kitaorg dgn kata katanya yg dpt membuatkan orang tu hampir menangis ketakutan.haha.kira ayat ayat dia ni ayat laser la.mmg best la kalau kena.tapi kalau kena kt diri sendiri, mahunya pergi menangis kt tepi dinding nanti.haha

sorang lagi ni yg nama qila or nama sebenarnya nur aqilah bt hamidon lain plak perangainya.qila ni asal kluang, johor.masa hari first day dulu tu, mak dia yg memperkenalkan dia kat kitaorang.aku pelik la jugak mula mula tapi aku layan je.haha.aku ingatkan dia ni mula mula seorang yg pendiam, tapi lama lama perangai dia yg sebenarnya menyerlah.haha.dia ni x la sesenyap yg aku sangka.bukannya jenis tanya sepatah, jawab sepatah.kusut la aku kalau dapat roommate mcm tu.haha.dia kelakar la jugak.kalau mintak tolong, dia okay je.masa mula mula dulu aku x bawak laptop.kira dalam bilik dulu dia sorang jela yg bawak laptop.so aku dulu dulu kalau nk online or buat assignment, aku pinjam laptop dia.kira baik la kan nk bagi pinjam.sesetengah orang susah nak bagi pinjam barang diaorang, even kat roommate sendiri.

me and qila at kfc seksyen 7.

yg sorang lagi ni namanya jijah or nama sebenarnya noor azizah bt mohd noor. dia ni masa first day dulu datang kejap je terus blah.katanya nk balik kem plkn dia balik.kitaorang semua pelik jugak ngan dia ni.asal dh masuk uitm tapi still nk sambung plkn? bukan ke dh dapat tawaran uni dah x payah gi plkn?tapi katanya nak habiskan jugak. sayang katanya.haha.tapi sayang pun ada maksud.bukan sayang nak tinggalkan plkn, tapi sayang nak tinggalkan pakwenya.haha. lantak kau la jijah.dah lama lepas tu dalam tengah2 bulan jun tu, baru la dia datang balik. siap mesej mesej aku lagi before dia balik tu, tanya pasal kelas and semuanya. semangat betul.alih alih time aku jumpa dia mase baru turun kereta depan pintu pagar mawar tu, tengok dia terhenjut henjut.,kaki dia kena simen rupanya.jatuh time main futsal kat plkn tu.mase aku tolong dia angkut barang gi bilik dulu, aku bual bual la dgn mak dia.mak dia alim.huhu.aku pun terkejut jugak time time dia sakit macam tu pun still puasa. katanya nak puasa tiga bulan berturut turut.aku pun x ingat puasa tu nazar or sunat je.aku pun macam, 'wow, minah ni biar betul nk puasa tiga bulan.alim macam mak dia.haha'. dia ni kalau gi kelas mesti pakai baju kurung or jubah.x penah pakai jeans or seluar biasa.kalau keluar gi jalan jalan baru pakai seluar, tu pun kadang kadang.aku x pernah jumpa orang macam ni.haha.pelik betul.

me and jijah otw nk pergi shopping.

so tu la serba sedikit kisah pasal roommate aku. kitaorang hidup sama sama dalam bilik yg sama lebih dari 4 bulan. macam macam dah kitaorang lalui. yg best, yg x best. semua ada. tapi satu je yg pasti, aku akan ingat korang sampai bila bila :)

aku tahu post ni x cukup nak cerita pasal kitaorang semua. so kalau ada masa free, aku akan tulis la pasal kitaorang lagi nanti.

Assalamualaikum...

i want a new haircut!

assalamualaikum semua..hope you all are in the pink of health..haha..

aku sebenarnya nk sgt a new haircut.rambut aku dh semakin panjang rambut yg aku rebonding dulu dh x straight dh.so skrg aku tengah terfikir-fikir nk buat haircut ape ya.. (yg pasti kena rebonding balik rambut!) haha.tu wajib punya.so aku sekarang tgh dilema antara dua...

long silky straight hair yg memang mengancam gitu...

yg ini pun mcm 'hot' jugak. pheewitt!

so sekarang aku x tau nk decide nk buat yg mana.kalau buat yg bob cut,syg plak rambut aku kena potong.aku dh lama teringin nk simpan rambut panjang-panjang.dulu susah coz rambut aku dulu mcm wavy.susah nk jaga.sekarang bila dh rebonding, senang la nk jaga.x dela nk menggerbang sana sini.

tapi kalau tgok yg bob cut pun cantik jugak.agak mengancam di situ.boleh dikatakan 'hot' la jugak.nk kata ikut trend, x jugak aku rase.bagi aku lawa.huhu.

wargh!mcm mane ni? long silky straight hair yg mmg tampak ayu menawan atau pun bob cut yg sememangnya hot gitu?x dpt nk decide.haha. i gotta think it deeply.

p/s: aku x akan WARNAkan rambut aku.aku tau benda tu akan menghalang air utk mengalir kt rambut tu.ianya bukan najis.tp sesuatu yg boleh menjadikan mandi wajib dan wuduk kita X SAH.