Sunday, November 28, 2010

new semester, new subject

assalamualaikum to all readers...

so maybe all of you had noticed that i had begun my new semester few days ago. it was a very tiring week for me though. i never expect to receive some tasks and works regarding the assignments! this is just the first week, and we all already got our assignments that shall be completed in few weeks! what the..haha. some of us maybe flabbergasted, but for me, this is just too much. haha. we never expect things like this will happen in the first week of our very new semester. all i was thinking was some ice breaking with the new lecturers, or a few classes might be cancelled due to some reasons. to get the assignments is last thing i've ever thought in my mind. but, what should i say, the new semester is more challenging compared to the previous one. i gotta take it, or leave it (who would ever just leave their assignments behind? u'll fail later!).

so here is the list of subjects that i'm gonna learn this semester:

bel 332 ( english for pre degree law I) - madam puspa
bel 342 (english for pre degree law II) - sir harcharan singh
mtc 037 ( intro to law II) - madam atifah
mtc 039 ( intro to social psychology) - madam fazlin
mtc 087 ( intro to law III) - madam nazida
mtc 088 (contemporary global issue, lecture) - madam rafidah
mtc 088 ( contemporary global issue, tutorial) - madam nurul huda
mtc 099 ( economic issue and problems) - madam jan ng

for this semester, some lecturers from the last semester are still continue to teach us ( madam puspa, madam fazlin, madam atifah). this is a good news for us as we don't have to be worried about not knowing the lecturers. all of us known them very well on how they teach us and conduct in giving the carry marks for the subject. it's a bonus for us (yeay!).

and for the another five lecturers that we never see or know how they teach their students before, here it comes the new challenge for us. some might be excited, some might be scared. HAHA (i don't why i type the haha with the capslock on). for me, this might be right time for our class to get know with other lecturers. if we keep getting the same lecturers for every semester, it will make our learning sessions become bored (sorry, but no offence). and i hate to be struck by boredom. it's like another hurdles that avoid me to from being focus and get a better result.but personally,i missed sir helmi's classes so much and i'm so sad that he's not gonna teach our class this semester.i envy the other class that got him teaching them.though he's so sarcastic,but that's the way i like him. haha. ("i'm a legend" <-- his favourite phrase).

nevertheless, getting new lecturers also mean that the business is risky. like i said before, we all don't know how the lecturers behave and either the gossips are true or not (students love to gossip about their lecturers! don't be shocked about that). but honestly, i'm keen to see how madam nazida gonna teach us later. are the gossips that we've been heard before are true? or it's just a dud? (some students bruit false gossips).

well, gotta go now. get some shower and perform the maghrib prayers. after that, i'm (reluctantly) going to finish the homework that sir harcharan gave to us. ( OMG, i'm so stressed!)

tata everybody :)

Friday, November 26, 2010

the last missing pieces

it suddenly came up in my mind
that i never told you what i supposed to say
and i'm sure you will never knew about it

i'm good in keeping secrets and my feelings
that dwell firmly in my heart and my soul
but it never gonna change the fact
how i truly feel about you

i'm no good in showing my love and affection
but when i said so, i really meant it
never lie, i hate lies, and liars too
when you don't mean it, don't say it

i'm prefer to keep my love life as a secret
it's just between you and me
it's none of the whole world's business
to know about it.

thinking of getting another one is not necessary
i'll let the time do it's job
and when the right time comes, i'll be ready
i guess.

being in a solitude is neither great nor worst situation
ever happened to me
and it doesn't render my mindset to change totally
because life taught me to be strong, every time.

and as the time passed by, slowly
the feelings never changed
it stays well in my heart and my soul
maybe, just maybe eternally.

i will not succumb to my desires easily
because the desires will turn me into a weak person
and i know it well
yes, i do.

so i guess this is it, i'll never look back
because we'll never gonna go back to the past
and try to alter the ending
it's not gonna happen

thanks for everything, i appreciated it a lot
and you know that
it's great to know a person like you
though we'll never meet

and i'm sorry, i still didn't believe the true love.

adios, el amor.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

kembali ke sekolah

assalamualaikum semua..

budak budak sekolah baru nak start cuti, aku dah kembali utk menyambung pelajaran aku kat uitm plak. haha. dah hampir dua bulan cuti tanpa buat apa apa, memang best. haha. otak ni maybe dah ingat x ingat je apa yg dah belajar dulu.
semalam baru first time aku tido kat bilik baru. 1A-04-32. tinggi gila dowh! semput and penat aku nak mendaki tangga tu. 4 tingkat tu! lama lama kurus la aku. haha. tapi tu memang aim aku pun. dok kat sini body kena fit sikit. haha. dah la dok tinggi tinggi, kelas dah la jauh plak tu.haha

roommate aku semua okay okay je. baru kenal gitu gitu je. masa first day yg daftar tu pun sempat tau nama je. tu pun dua orang je. sorang lagi baru kenal time aku balik tido kat sini. haha. x sempat. lepas daftar and letak letak barang, terus blah balik rumah abg long. haha.

semalam sempat juga pergi melawat bilik qila and dila. bilik diaorang memang jauh. jenuh aku nak pergi ke bilik diaorang. qila and jijah tingkat 4 blok b. dila tingkat 3 sama blok dengan aku. lama la jugak melepak kat bilik qila tu. layan movie thai. saja saja nak jumpa, lepas rindu kat diaorang. tapi roommate aku ni okay saja. baik baik semua. huhu.

dah la, setakat ni jela. nak gi mandi dulu. kelas start pukul 10.30 am hari ini. tiring day babe!

tata semua

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

selamat hari raya aidil adha and i'm so not ready going back to shah alam!

assalamualaikum to all my readers.. :)

i think it's not too late for me to wish a very happy eid adha to all muslims in the world. thinking that maybe some of you have spare their time to visit the relatives and friends on this lovely day. but to me, myself, it doesn't come up in my mind to celebrate this festive like others do. slaughter the cow and goat, or something bigger like the camel. having fun together cutting the meat into pieces. reminisce the old times. that is so not me this year. i don't know why. but maybe for some reasons, it affects me to behave that way.

reason 1: no one is coming back to kelantan this year. abg long and abg ja celebrate raya haji at their wives' village. our house is quite boring and quiet. there's only five of us in the just prepare some rendang and pulut kuning. at least there's something for us to eat before went back to the village.

reason 2: mom and dad is not doing the korban this year. it's clearly because we're going back to shah alam tomorrow (a day after the raya) and the time will be really short.

so,i guess, i'm hoping for a better raya haji next year. the more, the merrier, right?

yeah, so i'm like sort of going back to uitm this saturday. and we will start our journey tomorrow. did i say we? well, yeah. my parents and my brother. they are sending me back cause i brought so many things back home. haha.

so, tonight will be the last night for me to be here. at my lovely room. to feel the last damn cold room. haha. i'll miss the tv. i'll miss my mom's food. i'll miss my little kittens. i'll miss my time being a full time couch potatoes. haha. but the one that i'll miss the most is my family (aww!). i love them so much. no matter what. cause they're the only thing that belong with me. the priceless family. love you, mom and dad. and yeah, big brothers. though sometimes you asked me to do your laundries. haha.

i had pack some of the things. clothes especially. the're A LOT. haha. tomorrow will be our long journey. need to get some sleep now. night people. :)

see you later, kota bharu.
hi, shah alam.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

happy birthday ibu!

dear ibu,

i would like to wish a very happy 55th birthday to you. hope that Allah will bless you with everything that you've done. i wish that you will always in the pink of health and stay strong, like a superwoman. haha. getting older doesn't render you to became weaker. you're getting stronger. 55 is just a number. you still look fabulous, ibu.

be tough, be beautiful. you know that i didn't know how to show my love and affection to you, but trust me ibu, i love u and i'll always will do.

your daughter,


Saturday, November 13, 2010

when a heart break, it won't break even.


I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains
Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)

malaysian university english test

assalamualaikum semua..

hari ni dah lepas la segala kesusahan dan kerisauan aku tentang exam MUET tadi. alhamdulillah, aku dapat isi semua tempat kosong yg disediakan. haha. tapi tu x bermakna semua yg aku jawab tu betul belaka. paper yg paling menggugat iman aku adalh paper reading dengan listening. susahnya Allah saja yg tahu. aku dah hampir panik, nak berlari keliling dewan tu. punya la gabra tahap dewa. dah la aku datang lewat tadi. exam dah nk start aku baru sampai dewan tu. lewat tu sebab aku x tahu yg diaorang buat test kt dewan. aku ingatkan dia buat dalam kelas ke ape.mujur la dewan tu x jauh sangat dengan sekolah tu. dah la plak aku dh sampai kt dewan tu nama aku x ada plak dalam list calon yg exam kt sana. punya la aku takut gila kalau kalau aku x dapat exam kat situ. nanya aku nanti. tapi mujur la pengawas yg baik hati tu cakap yg aku boleh je exam kt situ tapi sebagai calon menumpang.

berbalik kepada exam tadi. punya la susah soalan dia. aduh. sakit jiwa raga nk menjawabnya. aku tengok ada yg termenung masa jawab exam tu. terpesona dengan alam sekitar ataupun hanya sekadar nk isi masa lapang x dapat jawab soalan tu. masing masing buat hal sendiri...

soalan paper reading tu terdiri daripada beberapa article yg panjangnya dalam satu muka setengah. bagi aku agak panjang la article tu dengan ayat ayat berbunga dan perkataan yg pernah dilihat dan didengar. pilihan jawapan pun hampir sama dan agak confuse nk pilih yg mana. dengan masa hanya satu jam setengah, agak semput aku nk pilih jawapan yg sesuai tapi alhamdulillah sempat juga jawab kesemuanya.

nak jawab muet pun x la guna banyak buku macam ni. haha

paper satu lagi yg listening pun susah jugak. walaupun speaker tu dah habis kuat dipasangnya, still x paham dan x jelas apa yg orang tu cakap. aku dah lemah semangat dah time tu. akhirnya terpaksa la aku reka jawapan yg MAYBE hampir sama dengan apa yg dia cakap. aku punya la concentrate gila gila tapi last last, x dapat jugak. x pela. nk buat macam mane. yg penting aku dah berusaha. sekarang tinggal untuk aku bertawakal dan berdoa agar aku dapat Band 4 dan ke atas. tu matlamat aku sekarang. insya-Allah...

mesti korang pernah mimpi macam ni. haha

Thursday, November 11, 2010

cerita pasal UiTM Shah Alam

Assalamualaikum semua..

korang mesti pernah tertanya2 kan nape sepanjang aku dok kt uitm tu, aku x pernah sekali pun cerita pasal life aku kt sana? haha.sebenarnya aku mls nk menulis pasal life aku kt sana coz byk sgt benda yg terjadi time aku dok kt sana. pahit ada, manis pun ada. boleh dikatakan mmg byk sgt la.nk menulis pasal benda tu kena amik masa yg lama.lagipun aku masa sem dulu tu busy dgn assignment. kalau x busy aku tidur or kuar gi lain.pendek kata, ak kena concentrate la kalau nk menulis kt blog ni.

okay, so my first post pasal life aku kt sana is pasal roommate aku. kolej yg aku duduk time sem lepas ialah kolej mawar. kolej ni kira macam baru lagi kalau nk banding dgn kolej lain. roommate aku semua mmg sempoi ar. x de nk 'touching touching', tgn merayap nk amik brg org sesuka hati or buat mcm harta dia sndri. semua tu x de.haha. aku kira macam bersyukur gak la x de roommate mcm tu.

kt sana, budak asasi semua dpt sebilik empat org. okay la tu. mase hari first daftar dulu, aku x sangka plak bilik aku tu jauh. jauh macam dh nk hujung dunia. haha. bilik aku adalah 1A-02-17.

bersama adila zahiri. gambar ni diambil time last day kt sana. tgok muka pun masih ada kesan2 sun burn lagi.

masa aku sampai kt bilik tu, roommate aku dua org dah ada dah. dila dgn qila. dila atau nama sebenarnya nur 'adila bt zahiri ni asal temerloh, pahang. dia okay je.sempoi sempoi. layan lagu SOAD, pastu lame2 layan maher zain. ingat nk buat maher zain tu laki dia padahal dh ada munir.haha. jiwa dia berubah ubah. dari rock2 gitu, jd macam perempuan melayu terakhir. x sangka dia ni akn berubah menjadi wanita sejati.mase sampai dulu, aku ingatkan dia ni tomboy ke, pengkid ke.haha.tgok rambut macam laki, gaya kasar.hampir hampir tertukar identiti.haha.satu lagi pasal dila ni, kalau ada org x dikenali kacau nombor tepon kitaorg atau sengaja nk cari pasal dgn kitaorg, dila la orgnya yg akan back up kitaorg dgn kata katanya yg dpt membuatkan orang tu hampir menangis ketakutan.haha.kira ayat ayat dia ni ayat laser la.mmg best la kalau kena.tapi kalau kena kt diri sendiri, mahunya pergi menangis kt tepi dinding nanti.haha

sorang lagi ni yg nama qila or nama sebenarnya nur aqilah bt hamidon lain plak perangainya.qila ni asal kluang, johor.masa hari first day dulu tu, mak dia yg memperkenalkan dia kat kitaorang.aku pelik la jugak mula mula tapi aku layan je.haha.aku ingatkan dia ni mula mula seorang yg pendiam, tapi lama lama perangai dia yg sebenarnya menyerlah.haha.dia ni x la sesenyap yg aku sangka.bukannya jenis tanya sepatah, jawab sepatah.kusut la aku kalau dapat roommate mcm tu.haha.dia kelakar la jugak.kalau mintak tolong, dia okay je.masa mula mula dulu aku x bawak laptop.kira dalam bilik dulu dia sorang jela yg bawak aku dulu dulu kalau nk online or buat assignment, aku pinjam laptop dia.kira baik la kan nk bagi pinjam.sesetengah orang susah nak bagi pinjam barang diaorang, even kat roommate sendiri.

me and qila at kfc seksyen 7.

yg sorang lagi ni namanya jijah or nama sebenarnya noor azizah bt mohd noor. dia ni masa first day dulu datang kejap je terus blah.katanya nk balik kem plkn dia balik.kitaorang semua pelik jugak ngan dia ni.asal dh masuk uitm tapi still nk sambung plkn? bukan ke dh dapat tawaran uni dah x payah gi plkn?tapi katanya nak habiskan jugak. sayang katanya.haha.tapi sayang pun ada maksud.bukan sayang nak tinggalkan plkn, tapi sayang nak tinggalkan pakwenya.haha. lantak kau la jijah.dah lama lepas tu dalam tengah2 bulan jun tu, baru la dia datang balik. siap mesej mesej aku lagi before dia balik tu, tanya pasal kelas and semuanya. semangat betul.alih alih time aku jumpa dia mase baru turun kereta depan pintu pagar mawar tu, tengok dia terhenjut henjut.,kaki dia kena simen rupanya.jatuh time main futsal kat plkn tu.mase aku tolong dia angkut barang gi bilik dulu, aku bual bual la dgn mak dia.mak dia alim.huhu.aku pun terkejut jugak time time dia sakit macam tu pun still puasa. katanya nak puasa tiga bulan berturut turut.aku pun x ingat puasa tu nazar or sunat je.aku pun macam, 'wow, minah ni biar betul nk puasa tiga bulan.alim macam mak dia.haha'. dia ni kalau gi kelas mesti pakai baju kurung or jubah.x penah pakai jeans or seluar biasa.kalau keluar gi jalan jalan baru pakai seluar, tu pun kadang kadang.aku x pernah jumpa orang macam ni.haha.pelik betul.

me and jijah otw nk pergi shopping.

so tu la serba sedikit kisah pasal roommate aku. kitaorang hidup sama sama dalam bilik yg sama lebih dari 4 bulan. macam macam dah kitaorang lalui. yg best, yg x best. semua ada. tapi satu je yg pasti, aku akan ingat korang sampai bila bila :)

aku tahu post ni x cukup nak cerita pasal kitaorang semua. so kalau ada masa free, aku akan tulis la pasal kitaorang lagi nanti.